In many languages the month January is named after the Roman god Janus, who often was depicted with two faces—one looking back on the past, one looking forward to the future. Reflecting on 2020 I am remind of the trials and joys that my family was able to experience and the lessons we learned.
Spencer’s deployment was extended and just hours before we were to pick him up they changed from him quarantining at home to on base. It was heart wrenching seeing him and not being able to hold him. It broke my heart to see how badly my children wanted to hug him. However, there was good he got over the jet lag without also trying to negative home life. He was able to unwind and reset from the demands of deployment. Maybe it was the best way to come home from a deployment.
Kray started his first semester at college. Spencer wasn’t allowed to go with me to drop him off. Kray and I had an amazing couple of days being together without everyone else wanting my attention. It was magical.
Dillon came home from his mission and then we had to quarantine for 14 days. He was able to spend so much time making memories with his siblings. I loved seeing the growth that he learned on his mission.
Virtual school. Enough said. We have learned and struggled and learned some more. Teachers are amazing and they are going above and beyond every day.
I became a certified life coach and all the tools I have learned have helped me to deal with everything 2020 sent my way. The most important thing I learned were to let go of my expectations and just be. Breath lots and stop fighting the emotions, feel them, embrace them and let them go.
Spencer has Quarantined for almost two months between me taking Kray to college, Dillon coming home and life in general. We’ve had a glimpse of retirement in a few years and its going to be amazing and challenging just like ever other aspect of life. Some days are amazing and some are hard. Some days things go the way I want and others not so much. The best part it’s my life and for I’m here all of it the good and the hard.
So lets say goodbye to 2020 and hello to 2021. It’s going to be a year of surprises, of growth and excitement, trials and heartache. I know I’m going to learn and grow and become the next version of myself. Who’s with me? Lets make 2021 the best year.